I'll be 39 tomorrow and people often say I look like I'm in my late 20's and how beautiful I am. What they don't know is what it took to get here. So many times we view others exterior not really caring about the steps to their journey.
You see it takes a Brave spirit, a warrior type of spirit to still smile through all that I have experienced. We tend to only want to reveal the masks we paint on instead of revealing the faces of our truth. Authenticity is not an easy pill to swallow because you begin to shed layers of attachments that others have held onto about you and what you yourself have held onto.
We spend so much time creating an image of approval that we have forgotten about that inner child that is looking to love!
Tamara's smiles and success up to this day was formed from rape, abuse, being homeless at one point, being a drug addict one upon a time, being stabbed with a knife in my back, attempting to commit suicide, running away from home at a young age, not speaking to my boys for 4 years because of family not understanding my transformation so they keep them from me, to not having any communication from all family members because of living my authenticity.
These are the things that we tend to cover up because we never want anybody to judge us but truth is, what is more important, being judged or being healed?
Those that judge reflect more of a fear of not living their own truth and so they judge your boldness and authenticity because they themselves are not Brave enough!
Life is about many journeys, about reflection, healing, self love and even karmic experiences and they are never meant to be held in but must be voiced to help others along the way. That is the true meaning of life... living to heal yourself and others.
Many will either judge this, will be new to this, will respect it and may use it against me but truth is my healing and self love to a better version of me is my purpose here. I will no longer be the one to only give others false advertisement because we need authenticity. Everything in our life is filtered for acceptance but what about the child that is hurting inside?
Rebirthing once again!